Losing someone or perhaps myself

It’s an end of an era in many ways for me. I’ve been really close to a guy for many years. I’ve never met him in RL, only online. He felt like family to me and I think he felt the same way about me.

A few weeks back, suddenly, without any warning he turned on me and said nasty things. He told me he was there for himself, not for anyone else and he couldn’t care less about our friendship. His girlfriend then blocked me on Facebook.

I have no idea what happened and why his girlfriend did what she did. We’ve never had much contact, so how could she hate me that much?

Anyway, I have to learn how to live without my “brother”. I’m not mad at him and actually miss him, but I’m not that needy, so I won’t try to contact him again. If he wants to have any contact, he must be the one to take the first step.

Another change for me is leaving Google plus. I’ve been part of that community for years ever since it started. The reason for me leaving is that I’m being totally ignored there by the Swedish community. It started with a fight I had with one of the other members. To me it seemed like a small thing, a misunderstanding, but suddenly a lot of my friends started to tell me all the things I did wrong. That something must be wrong with me etc. After that outburst from people I called my friends, they stopped interacting with me altogether. I can post things and I won’t get even a plus (like). So now I’m leaving. It breaks my heart, not only because I’ll miss some of my friends there, but mostly because I’m afraid that these things keep happening to me because there actually is something wrong with me.

2 thoughts on “Losing someone or perhaps myself”

  1. Hi Lila,

    I keep meaning to tell you how much I have enjoyed reading your posts here, and with the way things are going for you now, this is a good time for me to tell you something positive. You find the most interesting items to share! Thanks! I have no idea what went wrong in either of the two situations you mentioned, but I doubt it is you and only you at fault. Keep sharing, and keep a positive attitude.

    Cinn

    1. Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot. I miss our weekly chat, but I guess things must change. I’d love to host something, one day, in my world in opensim, but it would be too expensive to do anything like that in Second life. Anyway, I haven’t done much 3D related in a long time. If you get an account in any hypergrid enabled world, please come and visit. My private world is down since I have problems with it that I haven’t bothered to fix. But my regions in Craft world are up all the time nowadays.

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