I’ll not tweet on my LilaM account anymore. It’s not closed, but I won’t use it a for a while. Those who knows me will find me on my RL twitter account. I’ll tell you what my account name is if you ask me. I’ll post from time to time on this blog and I’ll be in worlds on occasion, but my SL activities will, from now on be cut to a minimum. If you know me, and want to keep in touch, I’ll be happy to tell you my email address or chat account name. See you around, and keep reading:)
Tag: RL
When worlds collide…
I have loved Second Life for a long time, for the people I met there and for the creative sides of it. Never seen the virtual world as somewhere to make money. On the contrary I’ve always felt that it’s a bit too much money and sex in SL for my taste. For those of you who have read my blog for a while knows I have a store in worlds and products at XstreetSL, but the main reason for that has always been the creative part. I love that people love my creations.
I’ve always been able to use SL as a place for recreation, where I can forget about Real Life for a while. But as RL problems got bigger, the harder it was to relax and forgot. Now I’m facing a big decision. Will I have to downgrade to a free account and sell my land or stay as it is. If I’ll do, I’ll have to find a way to earn enough in SL to keep the land. That means more work with new products, more advertising. Will I have time for that? Will it be enough? Or should I close my eyes and drive off towards the cliff that that will be there at some time.
Why can’t I just move in to SL?
SL as therapy?
Can you use SL as a way to work your way out of a crises? Or can you write yourself well? I’ve tried both. When I first joined SL I was overworked and really depressed. I spent more time online than offline and that helped me get better for a while. But at some point I felt I didn’t need SL that much. My trips to the virtual world was just for fun.
I have also written myself out of depression. The novel I have that is almost finished kept me sane when life got too difficult for me.
But in the end, all that is just superficial. You can’t hide in a virtual world or in a self created fairytale forever. As a “friend” in SL once told me:
“Alright, here’s a reality check. You’re old, you’re fucking ugly, you have a go nowhere career, you’re lost within a fictional world and live your life through a video game.”
How right he was…
I’m at a point in my life when everything just falls apart around and inside me and nothing I do can distract me from that. I know that my blog posts wouldn’t be very interesting or fun right now, so I‘ll stop writing for a while.
A break
As my regular readers might have realized, I haven’t written anything for a long time. First the reason was that my RL was taking a lot of my time. I actually had things to do for a change. Now, when things have slowed down, it might take some time until I can write something. And it might take even longer before I can enjoy SL again. And quite some time longer before I can enjoy RL again. I’ll answer if someone contacts me, but I won’t be Lila for a while. If I could, I wouldn’t be my RL self either. Wish I could take a break from life for a while.